I want to go home….
Ever have that feeling that you are out of your element but have no idea how you got there. I have spent the last 3 and 1/2 years with something that hangs over me, a foreboding, a dark cloud, a feeling of unease. Not something that I can point to and define but more of an instinct that tells me something is terribly wrong.
Now, I admit to being a political junky but it wasn’t intentional or sought out. It happened gradually as we (hubby and I) grew older, raised a family, struggled harder to pay the bills even though we were able to produce more income. It never seemed enough, in fact with each step forward we found out on April 15 of every year that Uncle Sam extracted almost the exact same amount that it had increased by. We have been self-employed for most of our lives, we tried to be smart and plan for the future but always fell into the cracks when it came to getting past the point of being just barely in the middle class income bracket.
Still, we were fortunate to pay our own way for the immediate necessities that arose, as they will. Yet, there was never enough left to put back for a rainy day. Every time we were able to put something back, a family emergency came along and wiped it out. We aren’t unique, I think a majority of Americans are just like us. We have always worked hard, taken care of ourselves and our children, helped out our friends and extended family when needed. Our lives haven’t been bad because we have been rich in the ways that can’t be defined economically.
We never feared our government, we never though much about the people in Washington DC, or realized what they might be up to that wasn’t in the best interest of the general welfare. ‘General Welfare’, two words that politicians use to excuse pandering to the lowest common denominator. To me those words mean something good for ALL, which means government isn’t supposed to pick winners and losers.
Today, I do fear government. I have lost all trust in their ability to do what is in the interest of the general welfare. The things that once were considered virtuous and right have become attributes to be demonized as selfish and greedy. The expectation that hard work and responsibility would be rewarded turned out to be an excuse to take from my labor and give away, willy-nilly, based on some politicians desire to be re-elected. I feel betrayed and deserted just when the ‘golden years’ arrived I found out there isn’t even an old chunk of coal in my sock….
The attitude that some may have that it sucks to be me, live with it, makes me wonder what kind of people we have become. There are millions like me, so what happens next? We want to experience that peace we once had but it eludes us and appears it will forever be out of reach….
My goal in life has always been to live the best I could and do no harm to others. It seems that goal was too self-centered and greedy according to the current ‘congress of baboons’ in Washington DC!!!! Their job is not to level and navigate the ‘playing field’ for anyone but rather to insure that we ALL have a playing field to navigate. Finding our own path and opportunity is a right!
I just want to go home…..maybe it was just a figment of my imagination. That place I knew as America, its history, the history I learned has been changed. Younger generations, (and a bunch of the old ‘me first’ hippies now inhabiting the ivy covered walls of higher education and government) don’t relate to the land of the free and the home of the brave. I fear that 236 years and the expense of much of blood and treasure in the name of freedom has been wasted on a nation that no longer remembers who she is….
One last thought…I retain my sanity with the belief, faith and knowledge that ALL things work to the good of those who love the Lord. He will be the decider and judge in the final analysis and one day I will go home.
My attempt at humor today!