life happens while we wait…..
We say when I grow up I am going to do what I want to! Then its, when I get out of school I am going to do what I want to do! Next its, when we get married we are going to do what we want to do! But then its, when the kids grow up we are going to do what we want to do! After that its, when we retire we will do what we want to do! Finally its, I wish I had done something I wanted to do while I was young and had the time and energy to do it!
It seems throughout our lives we are always waiting for the perfect time to live. I know I have made all kinds of excuses over the years for not doing the things that I really, really want to do. I have always dreamed of having a beautiful house that I designed with a beautiful yard and flower gardens that I tended. I wanted to fill my home with beautiful antique furniture, books and art. I thought that I would someday paint amazing pictures to hang on my walls. Basically I wanted to be June Cleaver and Martha Stewart all rolled into one. I just knew that all that would happen when the time was right.
Don’t get me wrong, I am not discontent with my life at all. I have been greatly blessed with a loving and loyal husband and amazing children who have given me amazing grand children. There is just this little itch that I always think I’m going to scratch. Its kinda like that thing you can’t remember but you know its something you need to take care of. Some call it a bucket list. I have tried to make a bucket list but when it comes to writing something on it, it sounds trivial when compared to the life I have actually led.
I suppose it isn’t unusual when you reach a certain age to have some regrets. You think about your life and realize just how much time has passed while you weren’t looking. Staying away from mirrors becomes very important because the person who looks back doesn’t fit with how you see yourself. That old saying that youth is wasted on the young now makes sense….
These days I can really appreciate the wisdom of Erma Bombeck! “Housework can kill you if done right.” That is why I am going to Dairy Queen with my granddaughter to have ice cream for lunch! Y’all have a better day that you ever dreamed possible!